i
dun noe wat to feel
dun noe wat to do
dun noe wat to say
anymore.
or maybe i just dun care
or i cant be bothered
cos life's just meaningless to me.
my family's not my family
my friends' not my friends.
my only friends are my seniors.
and besides them, i only have band and the music to keep me going on.
im just there for my family.
no one, someone, anyone, but just there.
and they dun bother about me.
they have never seen me smile, or laugh or cry.
cos im just there. and nothing else.
my parents put academics above music.
but i only care for music.
nothing else.
what's the point of living.
my friends?
nevermind them.
they act as if im not living.
they dun give a damn.
they dun care.
neither do i.
sheesh. i dun noe what to do.
try as i might to love bass, but my heart will always be with percussion. sigh. i feel guilty. i feel like leaving bass and joining percussion. my heart tells me i can excel in percussion more than in bass. but what am i supposed to do? leave jasmine alone?
i no matter how hard i try, i noe i'll still love percussion more.
cries
